Light in the chaos

Yesterday was a good day. I got up freezin my butt off (we had no heat) and quickly bundled my 2 sweet bundles. I got a lot of things done that I wanted to, and after I sat down on the couch last night I had a moment to reflect back on the day and it was good. I was EXHAUSTED tho, but it felt good because I was tired from doing stuff, not trying to manage a rambunctious 3 year old :)

I changed up the norm last night for her to see if it made a difference. We had "down time" to relax. She had a very warm  shower, new PJ's, cartoons, and a bedtime story. Oh, and no pills :) She went to bed with out a hitch, only got up twice through the night to ask for more juice. No screaming/crying/panic.... She's still asleep, resting on her own with no pills from the doc. That makes me SMILE. 

Daddy & mom helped us get our furnace fixed yesterday. Thank God!!! It was soooooo cold! It works like a charm and that is a lot of stress of my back.

I am loving how things are turning for us. Just one good day in the midst of all the chaos has helped me so much.  I guess praying really does help.  I have been trying for months now to bring my husband back to God with no success. Only sarcasms and what ifs and whys. Well When Lily had her BAD tantrum the other night Ben prayed. He said he prayed harder and more humble than he ever has. So my Lily brought her daddy back to God. That made me so happy.

I have to believe in something because I can not do this on my own...

I have so much more to say here. I know lily will be up soon and the house will get busy. I will add to this blog I think.... but this is my update for now